Christmas Season!!

Wow!! its the festive X-mas season again and I am in the real mood for celebrating and enjoying this time of the year to the hilt. So I have already brought home a lovely looking tree and each day I am adding the lovely decoratives. But there is something missing. I remembered there is a Christmas song I love , infact thats an understatement, I am crazy about it, but I cant find it anywhere. My old cassette is missing and no shop seems to have it. Its called "I want a hippopotamus for Christmas". Now who is going to play Santa Claus and Give this song to me?? 

गुलाबी ठंड

आज इस मौसम की पहली ठंड मेह्सूस की मैने। बाहर बागीचे मे बैठे बैठे शाल की जरुरत लगी। साथ ही हूआ एक भीना भीना सा अह्सास कि कुछ मदमाने की रितु आ गयी है। इस हल्की ठंड मे शाल की गरमाहुट , मानो किसी ने भीतर तक दिल को गुदगुदा दिया हो। एसा लगा कि कुछ बढिया पह्नना जाए और खाया जाए। उस पर भीनी भीनी फूलों की खुश्बू । बस स्वर्ग का सा एह्सास हुआ। अब बस मस्ती करनी है।   

Flame in my heart.

Today as I indulged in my daily practice of lighting the lamp 'Diya' in the evening I sat looking at it for a long long time. And I felt there was so much to that flame. It represented everything I was and everything I could be. In the flame I saw the whole universe , it symbolising limitless energy and power and potential. I felt diya as the protective aura around me , the light engulfing me ,filling every pore of me with such a positive feeling. It no longer remains just an act of lightig the lamp but an experience with my inner most self and the universe.

The Walk

A walk can be just a simple act of strolling or it can be an act of evolvement. It all depends on who you are walking with and what you end up discussing eventually. Recently I had this absolutely mindblowing experience of taking a walk with a freind. Well when this leisurely stroll began we did not know that by the end of it we will discover things about each other which we did not know even existed. Some very interesting things happened as soon as the walk began. We were strolling in silence for a while when we both spoke out simultaneously, but even before we spoke we were communicating. Those few minutes without words I call perfect.I call them perfect because when the communication happens between two people without exchange of words its the deepest and most poignant kind of communicating. Anyone who brings out this ability in me I consider him perfect for me, perfect in his quietitude , perfect as a person I could just happily watch for a long long time. 

Moving on we got talking on various things. And suddenly we were discussing the way Delhi is so unsafe for women. And that took us to the topic of position of women in India through various centuries. Before I move on I have to tell you that I have always been fascinated by the relationship between Krishna and Draupadi , so the discussion did reach there. Specially the significance of Draupadi reaching out to Krishna when she was in grave trouble .What a bond they must be sharing and what it would be based on? My freind said that kind of bond can exist only when there is absolute honesty of soul, heart and mind between the two people, it can't be any other way. I agreed and immediately started thinking who would be that person in my life. I was still pondering on this when my freind starting asking me as to whether I am careful enough while driving in Delhi. And I too teasingly said ' so now you are actually worrying about me?' To which he simply said 'I don't want people saying that this Kris let her Sakhi down, could not protect her , so its really not worrying but honoring the relationship which according to you is the epitome of relationships, unmatched in bonding.'

I felt as if I was having a moment of divine revelation. And Chris it has changed my life in the most beautiful way. What a warm feeling it is Sakha.

India and the current Economic crisis.

I think the time has come for India to take on the mantle of economic Superpower. Yes it does sound strange given the current economic downturn but if we care to look beyond this phase I see a paradigm shift in distribution and centering of world economic power. Its a shake up and when the dust settles I am convinced it would be India and China which shine brightly. Let me just elaborate why I think so, we are a -- shall I say an insulated economy to a great extent and that will ensure that the impact on us is limited. But what I consider an even more important factor is our disciplined human resource skill set, the unique feature being the ability of our people to adapt, to perform. While it is true that  fears have brought down demand it is also true that we have enough regulatory options with the government to be able to pump in liquidity and revive the demand and growth. It will take a while and yes there are going to be changes. Like we wiil have to accept the fact that exports to developed countries will go down bringing down the inflow of foreign currency. Therefore we will have to look at ways and sectors where in we have unfulfilled demand in our own country and cater to them. A reallocation of resources in required by the businesses and by the government. Infact at the cost of sounding optimistic I would even say there could br cash flows to us from other countries because of the human resources we make available----- less costly and highly effiecient. And we will have to give up the obsession of finding jobs in the West.Well I think the time has come to learn Chinese!!! At this time we essentially need to look forward , take stock of our situation, collective and individual and make the requisite changes. All of us who wait for their sector to be hit before assessing the facts and taking corrective measures will be the real sufferers of this crisis.

Now let me come to the post crisis World and India. Undoubtedly India will emerge out of it as a country with better growth rate and less battered than the advanced countries and I have no worry on this count. But what really worries me is  whether we are geared up for that situation. Are we investing enough in building the nation. I mean the infrastructure, the roads, power, water, safety and security. This is where we need to focus now. Pump in money to build us up. Because the time is soon going to come when we will have the role of economic leader but do we want to be in a situation to don it like a majesty or have it thrust upon us , is what we need to decide. 

What do I call you?

On popular demand I am putting my little speech here.

"Sometimes the simplest things in life are the most difficult; I always thought that when I will finally be called to say a few words on my experience with you it will be a cakewalk because I can speak volumes for a person like you. But here I am today, standing in front of you all and no words come out , I really don’t know what to say. What have you been to me? A friend, a guide, a mentor, an inspiration, a bright sun, a rainbow or just the lady luck shining on me in full glory. I do not know and perhaps never will but I can say one thing, you have touched my life in such a special way that you will always be a part of me. I don’t think you will ever understand how much of me as a person has been shaped by you in the past few weeks. Every moment in which I have interacted with you I have learnt, and I have learnt things which no business school can teach me. You are a beautiful and stunning example of how lovely a life can be. I especially remember today the long chats we had near the cliff on just anything under the sun and the long long walks at the shores talking endlessly. After each walk I have felt as if I have been enlightened on areas which I had never thought were so crucial to me as a person. Just as I remember all the past life experiments we did which have taught me so much.You know, I always thought that I was a positive influence on everyone around me but I think that was only because I had never met anybody like you, I have never experienced such vibes. For me meeting you has been a gift of God. You know in Indian philosophy we say that when God wants to give you something he comes in human form or chooses a person to deliver you that something. For me you have been the person God has chosen. I know I have never told you, was too busy pulling your leg and playing pranks on you , but I really like the strength of character and conviction in you just as I like your absolute confidence in yourself. I know if any day I need somebody to stand by me I can depend on you totally. I have no hesitation in saying today that by far in this programme I have found you the most impressive, as a student, as a speaker,as a thinker and above all as a person. Please remain what you are always. I do not know when we will meet each other again but till that happens I bid you goodbye and no I am not going to say good luck because people like you don’t need it , you create it !!!"

Delicious Italy

Once I reached I realised that one can enjoy Italy most by just walking and getting lost in the quieter backstreets, and seeing a glimpse of what's of what makes this country such a delight. Small shops, bars, galleries and markets will welcome you. If it's raining or misty, so much the better!

It is as easy to lose yourself in the alleys as it is to find yourself again. A little piazza may suddenly appear through a Byzantine archway, with a fountain splashing under the washed-out blue of a hot noon.Time for lunch before the hours of rest when all Italy slides into a soporific afternoon to arise refreshed for the evening. To walk through the echoing alleyways at this time is to have Italy for yourself. Small arched bridges with parapets of crumbling stone and steps worn hollow in the middle reach over ancient canals. Green water barely moves on the step of an old doorway, whose timbers have baked and slumbered through countless Italian summers. A nearby church offers sanctuary from the heat and a moment to sit in the cool darkness .

Here I walk into a strange area.Every house is painted a different, bright colour so it's like walking down the streets of a giant toy town. I am totally taken with the houses.

What better way to spend the day than to just stroll , leisurely ---lost in yourself -----soaking the beauty----and the experience.

Universe and My Experience!!!

The Universe has one desire above all others. It is to help you experience the life you want to experience. If you grow a flower the hummingbird will come. This is the dream and the singular goal of the universe - to make you happy and to ensure that you experience the things you want in this world. Let it be known to this universe what your dreams, hopes, aspirations, and desires are. Then take steps to achieve them.The Universe will pick up on your desire, will cherish it, and will aid in making it come true.This is truth - Just give it a try. Plant the seed. NOW.

I Have experienced the beauty of this myself.

Falling in Love!

13 signs of falling in love***

13. When you’re on the phone with them late at night and they hang Up...but you miss them already when it was just two minutes ago

12. You read their texts over and over again...

11. You walk really slowly when you're with them...

10. You feel shy whenever you're with them...

9. When you think about them, your heart beats faster and faster...

8. You smile when you hear their voice...

7. When you look at them, you can't see the other people around
You...
All you see is him/her...

6. You start listening to slow songs, while thinking of them...

5. They become ALL you think about...

4. You get high just from their scent...

3. You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think
About them.....

2. You would do anything for them.....

1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole
Time.......

isn't it ?

Out of Body experience........

Let me first write what I mean by Out of body experience.Out of body experiences are those curious, and usually brief experiences in which a person's consciousness seems to depart from his or her body, enabling observation of the world from a point of view other than that of the physical body and by means other than those of the physical senses. Thus, an out-of-the-body experience can initially be defined as 'an experience in which a person seems to perceive the world from a location outside his physical body' . In some cases experients claim that they 'saw' and 'heard' things (objects which were really there, events and conversations which really took place) which could not have seen or heard from the actual positions of their bodies.
More curious still are reciprocal cases of OBE and apparition: the OBE subject, aware that he is operating in some kind of duplicate body, travels to a distant location where he sees a person and is aware of being seen by that person; this person confirms that he saw an apparition of the OBEer at the time that the OBEer claimed to be in his presence. Thus the two experiences corroborate each other.
But my pondering is that , is it possible to have such experiences at will? Or is it possible to exchange bodies with somebody to learn what your physical body does not allow you to learn coz of circumstances,limitations etc etc. Lets say for few months. Do you think its fantasy or weird or just impossible!!!

What do YOU choose in life?

An interesting question for which I am not going to give my views but invite yours. Feel free to write whatever!! However outrageous it may seem!!

Soulmates.... Do they exist?

I have been pondering over the questions of soulmates for a while and I am sure all of us have at some given time considered this question. And I feel there are soulmates, twin flames, whatever you want to call them. I believe that everything happens for a reason, I know that some of the people that come into our Lives are merely there just to teach us a lesson. But in case of soulmates I am sure the connection has to be immediate and strong, strong enough to be classified as irresistible. And there would be a feeling of completeness when you meet your soulmate, a deep fullfilment. I am sure there is one twin flame soulmate for each of us. I believe that Twin flame soulmates must have spent multiple lifetimes together in past lives. There must be incredible chemistry and attraction towards each other. They "complete" each other and only few lucky people are able to find their twin flame soulmate. Twin flame soulmates, if separated, must be suffering enormous pain. What are your views on this?

Dance

The dance perfornance went off well and the experience was so rich that it made the effort worthwhile. It made me feel that I can pick up the threads of this art once again. The union I felt of mind body and soul was a very satisfying and energising experience. The audiencde was very responsive and I hope I will continue with my dance in futre.

Experiments with Telepathy.

Telepathy has been of considerable interest to me and I feel it would be interesting to experiment with like minded people. Perhaps we could start by sending colors and words to each other and then get back to see if we could connect. Please let me know if you are game for this, tonight and next 3 nights at 10PM.

Day dream

I don't know if it was a dream or a trance but I saw something vividly and it did seem real. I can't recognize the place but it seemed like a place of worship and there was music. Such music that would stir your soul, what voices , what melody! And there were colors , colors of splendour. And it was all in a language that I don't speak but here I could understand everything. There were colors swirling with each melody , blues and yellows and greens and whites till it all became a dance of the cosmos. And who was that , an image ? a figure of absolute light and glow and in all this surreal experience a voice kept saying --let go ,liberate yourself, come to me for I love --- again and again. When I came to I was so charged and there was this strong longing to be there again. What could it mean? What was the place?

Driving in the rain

The weather has been so amazing these past few days that it is difficult to believe its May in Delhi.Yesterday when I was driving to office it was an experience. I think for the first time I noticed the colour of the leaves and the beautiful amaltas flowers washed in the rain. The whole array of colours hit me on roads and for once I drove really slow soaking in the fantastic scenes.The Bougenvillia in all its splendour looked so endearing in rain , so did the gulmohar. And the Rajpath especially looked so inviting with dark clouds hanging overhead , the lush green on the sides and the majestic India Gate in front. I could have watched it for hours. I had a rush of childhood urge------- to walk and run in the rain. And I really wished I could just leave the car and take a long walk in the rain. May be I will next time, office can wait!!!

Which Path?

I think this is the most intriguing as well as the most difficult question. I am sure I am in this world for a purpose , and in fullfilling this purpose I would also experience self-realisation but what is my path? How do I discover it? At times I feel its trial and error, at other times I feel it comes from within through intuition. But here again I also feel that am I allowing myself enough quiet to hear the voices from within?

This is for you ladies!

Here is a piece written by Andy Rooney - CBS 60 Minutes. I really liked it!

"As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why:
A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.

If a woman over 30 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And, it's usually something more interesting.

A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 30 give a damn what you might think about her or what she's doing.

Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get away with it.

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated.

A woman over 30 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Women over 30 couldn't care less if you're attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won't betray her.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins and lies to a woman over 30. They always know.

A woman over 30 looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women or drag queens. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 30 is far sexier than her younger counterpart.

Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one! You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her.

Yes, we praise women over 30 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed hot woman of 30+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress. Ladies, I apologize.
Andy Rooney

So What say you women?

A Long Life!

Each one of us somewhere deep down wants a long life, which I suppose is a natural desire.But I find that not many of us really figure out what we want to do in that long life.I mean the question that comes to my mind is what are we going to do with that long life when most of our life moments are devoted to mere existing and not even living. If the present moments are not committed to happiness and fullfilment will be doing it just by adding years and minutes to our lives? Will it really make a diffrence if we lived for 100 instead of 50? Will we die a more satisfied person just because we had a longer life? Its a question which is kind of churning me. Any ideas?

MIRAGE

The Eucalyptus tree sways and swings,

the wrinkled arms thin by heat and dust,

the little river where water once flowed with joyous ripple,

now struggles with little muddy streams.

The skies of azure blue no longer fill the horizon,

and in the night the stars are hard to see.

The rickshaw puller struggles in the heat,

the lonely bus passenger looks for shade in vain.

The Small child carrying a burden twice his size,

I drift back to the eucalyptus tree,

The world outside my window Isn't.....free....

From the start

A thought has been occurring again and again in my mind.If I were to throw everything out of the window and start afresh what would I like my life to be. And surprisingly I had no answer. One would have thought that this would be so easy but it isn't !!! Still waiting for an answer!!!

Love Letters continued.

Here is something that really touched my heart...

"How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach, when feeling out of sight for the ends of being and ideal grace.I love thee to the level of every day's most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.I love thee freely, as men strive for right.I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.I love thee with the passion put to use in my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.I love thee with a love I seemed to lose with my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,smiles, tears, of all my life; "

Another one which left me very deeply touched....

"Do you know, when you have told me to think of you, I have been feeling ashamed of thinking of you so much, of thinking of only you--which is too much, perhaps. Shall I tell you? It seems to me, to myself, that no man was ever before to any woman what you are to me--the fulness must be in proportion, you know, to the vacancy...and only I know what was behind--the long wilderness without the blossoming rose...and the capacity for happiness, like a black gaping hole, before this silver flooding. Is it wonderful that I should stand as in a dream, and disbelieve--not you--but my own fate?
Was ever any one taken suddenly from a lampless dungeon and placed upon the pinnacle of a mountain, without the head turning round and the heart turning faint, as mine do? And you love me more, you say?--Shall I thank you or God? Both,--indeed--and there is no possible return from me to either of you! I thank you as the unworthy may.. and as we all thank God. How shall I ever prove what my heart is to you? How will you ever see it as I feel it? I ask myself in vain. Have so much faith in me, my only beloved, as to use me simply for your own advantage and happiness, and to your own ends without a thought of any others--that is all I could ask you without any disquiet as to the granting of it--May God bless you! --"

Love Letter- more

I write to that light within me which illuminates me so completely, my only complaint ------- why is the flash so fleeting?

"When two souls, which have sought each other for,however long in the throng, have finally found each other...a union, fiery and pure as they themselves are...begins on earth and continues forever in heaven.This union is love, true love,...a religion, which deifies the loved one,whose life comes from devotion and passion,and for which the greatest sacrifices are the sweetest delights.This is the love which you inspire in me...Your soul is made to love with the purity and passion of angels;but perhaps it can only love another angel, in which case I must tremble with apprehension."
How can I capture the experience?

Love letters

The need and desire to read & write love letters continues somehow. And the following two are classic.

"The passion of love has need to be productive of much delight; as where it takes thorough possession of the man, it almost unfits him for anything else. The lover who is certain of an equal return of affection, is surely the happiest of men; but he who is a prey to the horrors of anxiety and dreaded disappointment, is a being whose situation is by no means enviable. Of this, my present experience gives me much proof. To me, amusement seems impertinent, and business intrusion, while you alone engross every faculty of my mind. May I request you to drop me a line, to inform me when I may wait upon you? For pity's sake, do; and let me have it soon. In the meantime allow me, in all the artless sincerity of truth, to assure you that I truly am,your ardent lover, and devoted humble servant "


The second one
"...would I, if I could, supplant one of any of the affections that I know to have taken root in you - that great and solemn one, for instance. I feel that if I could get myself remade, as if turned to gold, I WOULD not even then desire to become more than the mere setting to that diamond you must always wear. The regard and esteem you now give me, and which I press to my heart and bow my head upon, is all I can take and all too embarrassing, using all my gratitude."

So totally from the heart it is touching. What is this ? A mirage? What do I want to experience?

Love

Today as I was meditating I experienced a deep and overwhelming feeling of love. I do not know to whom this love was directed to but it made me want to express it. And after ages I felt like writing a letter of love. I was wondering who I should address it to, to my own self whom I stumbled upon intimately today or to that supreme force whatever we call it. Here is my attempt to word what I felt.....

"At this moment I feel as if my heart has grown so huge ,so big that my whole being has been encompassed by it, as if there is no other part in my body ,in my existence.A mere thought of you makes me feel as if a river of warm honey is flowing through me. So overwhelming is this all pervasive love that I cry. I cry out of joy and gratefulness and because the feeling is so complete,so fullfilling. I feel so humbled ,as if I was nothing, worthless till you came. I still can't believe it!!!

I have fallen(or risen) in love with you in a totally hopeless manner but that does not mean that I expect you to reciprocate. Its a strange feeling , I say strange because for the first time in my life and I really mean for the first time I am experiencing a love which just wants me to give, to do things for you and to just feel you in my soul. My whole existence now finds meaning only through you , if you laugh I feel as if sun has come out on a winter day. I feel like making everything your heart has ever desired come true for you. I don't think you realize how much positivity , how much sunshine you have. A mere chance encounter with you can be so inspiring and life changing for any one.

And today love I only want one thing , I want you to do whatever you please in life while I take care of the rest of the things, small and big. I want to say to you that Go Fly and if ever you fall I am there.I want my love to give you wings. Live on your terms and its my promise to see to it that your terms are always met.Be who you are and I will adjust, infact it will be my greatest pleasure to do so. I am a very ordinary person of no great qualities but today I feel I do have a great quality -- that you love me---this love has made me special----- I have met God , I have experienced Almighty through this love. Thank You for making me the happiest ,most extraordinarily fortunate person on this earth. You are my tapasya ,my deepest desire, my greatest blessing and if ever a frown dares to cross your brow I will be there to smoothen it and if any hardship comes your way it will have to go through me. I want to be anything you want me to be in your life. Whatever you want to make me. And honestly I feel whatever you make me will be better than whatever I can ever be my love.

Even the breeze which flows today envelopes me in love for I know the same breeze has somewhere touched you. And there is so much of you in me now that it does not matter where you are, I experience you within me. Every leaf, every flower , every moment all my eyes can see is you,all my ears can hear is you. I feel as if I am standing on the shores of an ocean , ocean of the love I feel for you . Every time a wave comes it drenches me in love and each wave is higher than the other. Oh! who could be more blessed than me for I have forgotten my own name in love.

Your mere thought makes me love myself because you are in every pore of me. There is no more of me there is only you, I have lost myself in you.

Soul ly yours "

Guru & Me!

Me: What is my purpose in life?
Guru:Purpose is simple,don't look far.See God, experience God , not in your temples , not in your books but within you , in your heart & soul. Find me there and your purpose in life is served.You are a river keep flowing and I flow with you, look within for all that is outside is only a reflection ,an illusion.You are the truth, you are him.Realise this and you are free forever.
Me: What is this sudden upheavel within me & outside of me?
Guru:What you call upheavel is that really an upheavel? It is a churning, it is reaching out to self-realisation while lot of things pull you back.It is getting rid of elements which have served their purpose in your life. It is further experiences which you must have before you find yourself.The voice calls you now. Without these experiences the iron of your soul in not hot enough for me to stike.
Me:Why are things not getting clear to me?
Guru:Are you sure they are not getting clear? When have you felt this strong a longing to unite with your being?This single minded urge? Time has come seize the moment.
Me:Why do I feel so tied to people, esp. to people I am related to by birth?
Guru:Is a tree related to anyone by birth or the river,or the stars or the wind? Then why you? You are their karma and they are yours .All your life people will come into your life because of karma.But learn to let go when its over.All of them come to give you a chance to close chapters, even people you feel tied to by birth.If god wanted you to be tied to them forever he would keep you in Mother's womb forever and not send you in this world as an individual, A whole new human being.
Me:Why do these relationships affect then?
Guru:Because you are attached. And not just to people, to things as well.You lose a watch you are affected, you see a person you are related to unhappy you are affected.You are so attached and this in itself is ironical.You are a free spirit, why do you want to be like a bonded slave.The world you live in tells you that you are less of a human being if you are not attached and you believe it.How can you be attached? Attachment needs a past and a future but the soul exists only in the now.Leave the past it has served its purpose and its gone, future never comes so wat are you attached to?

Happiness & Me

Will anybody be happier because I passed their way? Will anyone remember that I spoke to them today? When the day is over and the hard work is through; Will anyone say a kind word about me or you?
Will I say tonight as I'm going off to sleep I helped a single person of the many that I passed?
Will a single heart be happy over what I'll do or say? Will a person who feels really down be happy in some way?
Will I just waste today?

Interesting Thought!!

"The thing always happens that you really believe in; and the belief in a thing makes it happen."

Me & Guru

Me: Aap chahne wale kaise ho?
Guru: Ye jo itne khubsurat phool hain,nazare hain, drishya hain main sabko chahta hun. Wo kiska dil hoga jo inko naa chahe. Lekin main inko paane ki kamaana nahi karta. Ye hain bas itna hi bahut hai. Dekh kar harshit ho leta hun. Mujhe ye nahi lagta ki main inko choo kar dekhun, ya inka bhog karun. Jaisa bhav inke singaar ka hai waisa hi bhav mere chahne ka hai.
Me:Inke singaar ka kya bhav hai?
Guru: Ye bas khubsurat hain to hain.Kisi ki taarif ki kaamana se sunder nahi hain.Ye inki prakriti hai. Mujhe inse prem ka bhav hota hai , bas lagta hai ye saundarya ye prakriti bani rahe, jaisi hai waisi hi.
Me: Guru ji koi bhi vastu ya rishta ya baat hamare jeeven mein nirarthak ho chuki hai iska pata kaise chale?
Guru: Bada goodh sawaal poocha,paane se jyada jaane dena mushkil ho sakta hai. To jawab main jitna saral ho sake deta hun. Anubhav karo, ki jo kuch bhi tum tak pahunche aur bina hriday tak marg paaye bikhar jaaye wo nirarthak.Theek waise hi jaise ki mitti ka koi dhela tum par aa kar lage aur bikhar jaaye. Uska tumhare jeeven mein ab koi sthan nahi.Aur ye jannana koi kathin kaam nahi. Jo kuch bhi kisi bhi star par tika hi nahi bas bikhar gaya uske saath tumhare karm poore hue. Ab usse jaane do. Chahe wo baat ho ,insaan ho ya ki rishta. Aage aur bahut karm baaki hain , un par dhyan do.
Me: kya jaane dena itna hi asan hai?
Guru: Bilkul asan hai jab ki tum ye samajh lo ki uska jana ki tumhare liye uchit hai. Ek adhyay samapt hua. Ab jeeven ki raah par kuch aur aage badho, naya adhyay shuru karo. Ek hi bhanwar mein fasin rahogi to jo kuch is janam mein poora karna hai wo agle janam tak le jaaogi. Jeeven ka har anubhav ek shiksha aur tayyari hai. Aur jab iish ne gyan aur tayyari dono hi de di to bas ab bhoosi to jhado aur ann ko chuno.

Me & Guru

Me: Aap kaun hain?
Guru: Kaun hun isko kya kahun? Tumhare sammukh kuch bannane to jee nahi chahta. Tum jo banaogi wahi ban jaaunga.
Me: Agar main kahun ki aap yogi na ho kar chahne waale bano to?
Guru: Chahne wala to main is samay bhi hun.
Me: Samjhi Nahi.
Guru: Batata hun.

Shopping! Its my religion!

I am an absolute delight for all shop keepers around the world. At times I seriously believe that if I were not around so many businesses would have failed. Take the example of malls. Newspapers were full of stories about of how despite footfalls malls were doing sluggish business. Then my feet found their way to malls and look!!! I do have some rules of shopping though. I never say no to any upcoming designer, I beleive in my social responsibility infact I am passionate and dedicated about it!! Then I don't believe in leaving a mall without bags the size of Jayalalitha!! And of course if I like it I buy it!! Leaving something I like unbought is against my religion!! I know you all are muttering what a wasteful girl but pause to think I am really wasteful? If you think I am wasteful you have not met Gurgaon Expressway Company guys who are hell bent on wasting my life and yours over getting "SMART"(watever that means) tags and recharging them!! Or the BSES guys who will waste your mind over a meter!!! OK Ok don't waste your breath on virtues of frugality and SIMPLE living( wats that?) By the way I love to see all you well meaning people go nuts over my shopping , adds action to your lives and mine. Love it !! Thanks!

Colors and me!!!

Lots of theories have been put forth about what colors imply and what is their significance. But I am not going to go into all that ,infact I have had a strange experience very many times and that is what I want to share.Colors always remind me of some fragrances ,just looking at that color fills me with a familiar fragrance. Red makes me feel as if amist a flock of goats or sheep. Yellow reminds me of a hot summer day and its dry smell, white that of rainy day and wet earth, black of jasmines and blue of fresh food. Tell me if you all have had similar experiences!!!

Loving with freedom

Man's greatest longing is for freedom. Man is a longing for freedom. Freedom is the very essential core of human consciousness: Love is its circumference and freedom is its center. These two fulfilled, life has no regret. And they both are fulfilled together, never separately.
People have tried to fulfill love without freedom. Then love brings more and more misery, more and more bondage. Then love is not what one has expected it to be; it turns out just the opposite. It shatters all hopes, it destroys all expectations, and life becomes a wasteland, a groping in darkness and never finding the door. How to get there? Loving with freedom. Any ideas?

Closest to myself.

I saw a flower today , it was orange and yellow with a bit of reddish tinge. I think it was flox and so very beautiful that I could not help staring at it endlessly. Somehow it filled me with a sense of great joy , an amazing feeling of feeling so so close to my being. Later I felt as if my heart had converted to that flower and slowly opening. A warm blissful divine feeling. Thank you God.

Two paths

It was one of those intimate moments you have with your own self when I was just walking through my entire life , what it is , what it was and what it is likely to be.Just as any other person's life it has been eventful , at times absolutely blissful, sometimes crazy and at yet other times totally incomprehensible. What is it that makes me me and what is it that makes my life the way it is? The answer is suprisingly simple...... there have always been two or more paths in front of me and which one I have chosen to take has decided what I am today and what my life is today. I remember reading the following somewhere:

"There always two choices in life. The first choice we can make is to be less than we have the capacity to be. To earn less. To have less. To read less and think less. To try less and discipline ourselves less. These are the choices that lead to an empty life. These are the choices that, once made, lead to a life of constant apprehension instead of a life of wondrous anticipation.
And the second choice? To do it all! To become all that we can possibly be. To read every book that we possibly can. To earn as much as we possibly can. To give and share as much as we possibly can. To strive and produce and accomplish as much as we possibly can. All of us have the choice.
To do or not to do. To be or not to be. To be all or to be less or to be nothing at all."
I was just wondering how many times I have taken the choice to be! Perhaps not enough times. May be this is the time make this resolve. How do I want my life to be , yes that is the starting point. I have to sow the right seed in my entire being to reach there. Every moment , every pore of myself has to dream that. Easy to say I think but I am going to give it a sincere try.

Strange Dream!

Last night I had a really strange dream. I saw myself and my dog taking a walk and we were really enjoying it. As we drew closer to home I picked him up and suddenly I saw that I had the dog in my arms as well as on the ground, there were two of them!! Then I saw myself in kitchen and after I had finished cooking I stepped out and lo and behold there was one of me in kitchen and one outside!! Then I saw a freind coming towards me and as he came closer I saw one of him standing at a distance and another of him walking towards me. And as I tried to understand what was going on I tried to feel each of the second incarnations and there was no physical body in any of them including myself. I woke up with a rather pleasant feeling underlined with an immense desire to experience myself in more ways. Trying to figure out, any ideas?

I want to be contented ,do I really?

Contentment is bliss or so I am told by many many schools of thought and for long years I did try to pursue it too. But a realization is beginning to dawn on me, my happiest, most satisfying ,most poignant moments are not the moments of contentment but those of churning. The kinds which shake my entire being and throw such new thoughts and feelings upto me from within that I am amazed. Amazed at the depth of experience,amazed at the fact that it existed somewhere within me without even my knowing so. In that flash of insight the feeling is of complete spiritual shock, a pleasant and satisfying one. And soon after I feel a very deep contentment, contentment of soul felt in the depths of my being. But do I want to just be there and live in that contentment? No ! the answer is an emphatic no. The greedy , parched soul wants more. With each churning I rediscover the layers of me and that temptation is too much to resist. Will I ever be able to know myself fully? Or is the journey more interesting than the destination? I was just imagining a scenario today, suppose I am contented today fully, completely, totally and then do what do I seek, what do I want to discover? Does contentment mean going no further or deeper? Well if so I am not sure I want to be contented. For I definetely choose churning for now.

instinct.intuition and facts.

Today i seek a simple feedback. Wat is your take on instinct,intuition and facts? And wat role you assign them in life?

The Walk.

A walk can be just a simple act of strolling or it can be an act of evolvement. It all depends on who you are walking with and what you end up discussing eventually. Recently I had this absolutely mindblowing experience of taking a walk with a freind. Well when this leisurely stroll began we did not know that by the end of it we will discover things about each other which we did not know even existed. Some very interesting things happened as soon as the walk began. We were strolling in silence for a while when we both spoke out simultaneously, but even before we spoke we were communicating. Those few minutes without words I call perfect.I call them perfect because when the communication happens between two people without exchange of words its the deepest and most poignant kind of communicating. Anyone who brings out this ability in me I consider him perfect for me, perfect in his quietitude , perfect as a person I could just happily watch for a long long time. 

Moving on we got talking on various things. And suddenly we were discussing the way Delhi is so unsafe for women. And that took us to the topic of position of women in India through various centuries. Before I move on I have to tell you that I have always been fascinated by the relationship between Krishna and Draupadi , so the discussion did reach there. Specially the significance of Draupadi reaching out to Krishna when she was in grave trouble .What a bond they must be sharing and what it would be based on? My freind said that kind of bond can exist only when there is absolute honesty of soul, heart and mind between the two people, it can't be any other way. I agreed and immediately started thinking who would be that person in my life. I was still pondering on this when my freind starting asking me as to whether I am careful enough while driving in Delhi. And I too teasingly said ' so now you are actually worrying about me?' To which he simply said 'I don't want people saying that this Kris let her Sakhi down, could not protect her , so its really not worrying but honoring the relationship which according to you is the epitome of relationships, unmatched in bonding.'

I felt as if I was having a moment of divine revelation. And Chris it has changed my life in the most beautiful way. What a warm feeling it is Sakha.