Love

Today as I was meditating I experienced a deep and overwhelming feeling of love. I do not know to whom this love was directed to but it made me want to express it. And after ages I felt like writing a letter of love. I was wondering who I should address it to, to my own self whom I stumbled upon intimately today or to that supreme force whatever we call it. Here is my attempt to word what I felt.....

"At this moment I feel as if my heart has grown so huge ,so big that my whole being has been encompassed by it, as if there is no other part in my body ,in my existence.A mere thought of you makes me feel as if a river of warm honey is flowing through me. So overwhelming is this all pervasive love that I cry. I cry out of joy and gratefulness and because the feeling is so complete,so fullfilling. I feel so humbled ,as if I was nothing, worthless till you came. I still can't believe it!!!

I have fallen(or risen) in love with you in a totally hopeless manner but that does not mean that I expect you to reciprocate. Its a strange feeling , I say strange because for the first time in my life and I really mean for the first time I am experiencing a love which just wants me to give, to do things for you and to just feel you in my soul. My whole existence now finds meaning only through you , if you laugh I feel as if sun has come out on a winter day. I feel like making everything your heart has ever desired come true for you. I don't think you realize how much positivity , how much sunshine you have. A mere chance encounter with you can be so inspiring and life changing for any one.

And today love I only want one thing , I want you to do whatever you please in life while I take care of the rest of the things, small and big. I want to say to you that Go Fly and if ever you fall I am there.I want my love to give you wings. Live on your terms and its my promise to see to it that your terms are always met.Be who you are and I will adjust, infact it will be my greatest pleasure to do so. I am a very ordinary person of no great qualities but today I feel I do have a great quality -- that you love me---this love has made me special----- I have met God , I have experienced Almighty through this love. Thank You for making me the happiest ,most extraordinarily fortunate person on this earth. You are my tapasya ,my deepest desire, my greatest blessing and if ever a frown dares to cross your brow I will be there to smoothen it and if any hardship comes your way it will have to go through me. I want to be anything you want me to be in your life. Whatever you want to make me. And honestly I feel whatever you make me will be better than whatever I can ever be my love.

Even the breeze which flows today envelopes me in love for I know the same breeze has somewhere touched you. And there is so much of you in me now that it does not matter where you are, I experience you within me. Every leaf, every flower , every moment all my eyes can see is you,all my ears can hear is you. I feel as if I am standing on the shores of an ocean , ocean of the love I feel for you . Every time a wave comes it drenches me in love and each wave is higher than the other. Oh! who could be more blessed than me for I have forgotten my own name in love.

Your mere thought makes me love myself because you are in every pore of me. There is no more of me there is only you, I have lost myself in you.

Soul ly yours "