I want to be contented ,do I really?

Contentment is bliss or so I am told by many many schools of thought and for long years I did try to pursue it too. But a realization is beginning to dawn on me, my happiest, most satisfying ,most poignant moments are not the moments of contentment but those of churning. The kinds which shake my entire being and throw such new thoughts and feelings upto me from within that I am amazed. Amazed at the depth of experience,amazed at the fact that it existed somewhere within me without even my knowing so. In that flash of insight the feeling is of complete spiritual shock, a pleasant and satisfying one. And soon after I feel a very deep contentment, contentment of soul felt in the depths of my being. But do I want to just be there and live in that contentment? No ! the answer is an emphatic no. The greedy , parched soul wants more. With each churning I rediscover the layers of me and that temptation is too much to resist. Will I ever be able to know myself fully? Or is the journey more interesting than the destination? I was just imagining a scenario today, suppose I am contented today fully, completely, totally and then do what do I seek, what do I want to discover? Does contentment mean going no further or deeper? Well if so I am not sure I want to be contented. For I definetely choose churning for now.