I want to be contented ,do I really?

Contentment is bliss or so I am told by many many schools of thought and for long years I did try to pursue it too. But a realization is beginning to dawn on me, my happiest, most satisfying ,most poignant moments are not the moments of contentment but those of churning. The kinds which shake my entire being and throw such new thoughts and feelings upto me from within that I am amazed. Amazed at the depth of experience,amazed at the fact that it existed somewhere within me without even my knowing so. In that flash of insight the feeling is of complete spiritual shock, a pleasant and satisfying one. And soon after I feel a very deep contentment, contentment of soul felt in the depths of my being. But do I want to just be there and live in that contentment? No ! the answer is an emphatic no. The greedy , parched soul wants more. With each churning I rediscover the layers of me and that temptation is too much to resist. Will I ever be able to know myself fully? Or is the journey more interesting than the destination? I was just imagining a scenario today, suppose I am contented today fully, completely, totally and then do what do I seek, what do I want to discover? Does contentment mean going no further or deeper? Well if so I am not sure I want to be contented. For I definetely choose churning for now.

instinct.intuition and facts.

Today i seek a simple feedback. Wat is your take on instinct,intuition and facts? And wat role you assign them in life?

The Walk.

A walk can be just a simple act of strolling or it can be an act of evolvement. It all depends on who you are walking with and what you end up discussing eventually. Recently I had this absolutely mindblowing experience of taking a walk with a freind. Well when this leisurely stroll began we did not know that by the end of it we will discover things about each other which we did not know even existed. Some very interesting things happened as soon as the walk began. We were strolling in silence for a while when we both spoke out simultaneously, but even before we spoke we were communicating. Those few minutes without words I call perfect.I call them perfect because when the communication happens between two people without exchange of words its the deepest and most poignant kind of communicating. Anyone who brings out this ability in me I consider him perfect for me, perfect in his quietitude , perfect as a person I could just happily watch for a long long time. 

Moving on we got talking on various things. And suddenly we were discussing the way Delhi is so unsafe for women. And that took us to the topic of position of women in India through various centuries. Before I move on I have to tell you that I have always been fascinated by the relationship between Krishna and Draupadi , so the discussion did reach there. Specially the significance of Draupadi reaching out to Krishna when she was in grave trouble .What a bond they must be sharing and what it would be based on? My freind said that kind of bond can exist only when there is absolute honesty of soul, heart and mind between the two people, it can't be any other way. I agreed and immediately started thinking who would be that person in my life. I was still pondering on this when my freind starting asking me as to whether I am careful enough while driving in Delhi. And I too teasingly said ' so now you are actually worrying about me?' To which he simply said 'I don't want people saying that this Kris let her Sakhi down, could not protect her , so its really not worrying but honoring the relationship which according to you is the epitome of relationships, unmatched in bonding.'

I felt as if I was having a moment of divine revelation. And Chris it has changed my life in the most beautiful way. What a warm feeling it is Sakha.