Its a very strange thing but somehow the future me always wins over the present me. Haven't understood? I'll explain. Just as I start doing something I start wondering how will it affect the future me , I mean me six months or one year or 10 years hence. At times i have also given up the happiness of 'me the now" for "me the then" and the weirdest thing is that when "me the then" arrived I was either not interested in that thing which I was saving for myself, or it was just no longer there or I had just plain forgotten all about it!!! So much for careful postponing and pandering to the "me the then".
One fine day I also realised that "me the then" is also very fickle, she may not come at all!!! Why do I love "me the then" more than "me the now"?? I have no idea but perhaps it makes me feel that if I postpone lot of happiness for "me the then" I'll be perfectly happy "then" but somehow this concept(largely learnt from our pleasure stifling society) is not working for me.
And this new year this is my resolution--------------- To make "me the now" happy!! Cheers to that!
Monday, December 24, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
Whatever!!
It suddenly struck me that whatever is not just a word but a complete attitude! A single word which conveys so much--- I could say to hell with it by just saying , oh that, well whatever! Or if I want to say who are you? I just say You whatever!!! similarly I could say I don't give a damn or you are boring me or just that I am not even listening.
Beyond that I feel its particularly helpful to tell myself whatever wen something is bothering me. A shrug coupled with Whatever !!! works everytime!! Try it!!
Beyond that I feel its particularly helpful to tell myself whatever wen something is bothering me. A shrug coupled with Whatever !!! works everytime!! Try it!!
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Meeting your own self !
I often wonder how rarely do we meet ourselves, I mean as we are ---no facades , no pretences, no put on faces!! And whenever I go wandering and wondering on this path I realize two thing; one, for a long period of time i was not prepared to meet myself------- why?--------perhaps coz I scared of what I will find , worried I may not like me and what if others get to know of me, the real one! two, perhaps the me was lost in what I had become trying to be what others EXPECTED me to be!!
Yes with age experience time watever you call it wen I did run into myself it was a bit strange and the more i got to know me the more I loved and honestly those are the times wen I feel as if I am experiencing that bliss or godlike experience. just wen I am me in word , deed, thought, emotion--------I am doing wat i think,i feel,i want and i yearn!! there is no discrepancy in either , that is the experience I wish to capture again and again and again! The only quest is How??? How to have it more and more!!
Yes with age experience time watever you call it wen I did run into myself it was a bit strange and the more i got to know me the more I loved and honestly those are the times wen I feel as if I am experiencing that bliss or godlike experience. just wen I am me in word , deed, thought, emotion--------I am doing wat i think,i feel,i want and i yearn!! there is no discrepancy in either , that is the experience I wish to capture again and again and again! The only quest is How??? How to have it more and more!!
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